I Think I Have My Word

I think I have it, I hope I have it.  I know it isn’t set in stone and if I got it wrong I can always change it. Or even have more than one word!  I thought it was going to be ENOUGH. I was all set to settle on it. But then somewhere along the way, yesterday I suppose it was….and SELF came to mind. I am trying to remember exactly how it came about, but for the life of me the brain fog won’t let me recall right now.

So back to the word.  I had been thinking quite a bit about how I don’t feel like I am Enough. Why I feel the way I do about things and people. That sort of thing. Then the last couple of days, just about every astrological forecast type thing for the coming year says that this year (2018) is my year. That things will fall into place, the thing or things that have been weighing me down will finally let me go.  And I’m all YES YES YES, finally Yes!

Some are saying that part of the beginning I am feeling the need to go inward. This is true. I have been feeling like that for a few days actually.  Much of what I have been reading has been spot on. But what am I going to do with it? I don’t want another year of sitting on the sidelines and doing nothing. Or only getting a bits done and then kicking myself in the ass because of whatever held me back in that moment.

So SELF…..Self-care, Self-love, Self-acceptance. All things I need to work on.  2018 might be a SELF-ish year for me. I keep saying I am going to focus on what I want, what makes me happy…but then I don’t. I could give reasons or excuses, but in the end it doesn’t really matter the why.  I don’t think I have a symbol or theme yet for the new year, but if I do or will I am sure they will come to me.

I promised I would share my Yule surprise in this post too. But first a little story. I am one of the youngest of the cousins in my family. So some were about 8 by the time I came along, therefore we weren’t close. But age isn’t the reason for it. For reasons unknown, even though we all grew up in the same neighborhood and attended the same school the only time most of spent any time together was Easter, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Age, divorce, moving, kept some of us apart as the years went on.

About two years ago or so, one of my older cousins reached out to me wanting to reconnect. At first I was hesitant, skeptical even.  But I was also curious. We started communicating, catching up. It was probably one of the best things to ever happen. She has witchy tendencies like me. We found we share a fondness for things herbs, the moon, magic, the Goddess. She makes candles and the like and has sent me some.  This year she sent me a box of goodies.

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She sent a wooden box for me to paint and decorate and to turn into an intention box. She included incense and resin, 2 bayberry candles, a couple of gemstones, 2 English coins for luck, a good witch/bad witch wine stopper, and a lovely necklace. Her note that she included brought me to tears. Her words were exactly what I had been thinking here lately.  I believe that we though we are cousins by blood, we are sisters at heart.

I haven’t started working on my box yet. It was something I was thinking about maybe doing today. If not tomorrow, start the year off creatively.

Well…here is to a better year for all of us.  Wishing you all a safe, happy, healthy, prosperous New Year filled with love and grace.  Let’s make 2018 a good one!

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. jyneeb73
    Jan 01, 2018 @ 12:10:36

    I think that is wonderful. I most definitely need to practice more self-care as well.

    Reply

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