And Just Like That…

It’s the last day of June.
The last Sunday of the month.
And I almost forgot to post  😲

I think I am letting too many things fill my mind.
Things that are not for me to decide or comment on.
Though I do share my thoughts or feelings on it and
I probably should just keep my month shut.

I just hate to see people guilted into doing something they
don’t want or don’t feel up to doing.
It’s hard to stay quiet.
But I don’t feel it’s my place.  Even when I have mentioned
that I don’t feel it’s right, I then feel like I should just
bite my tongue.

Trying to stay neutral and out of it.
Trying be Switzerland as they say.
But fuck it’s hard.

It’s funny.
I often feel compelled to jump in and defend someone’s
right to say no to a thing.
But when it’s me in the same situation, I usually feel backed
into a corner and often find it difficult to protect my boundaries
and say no to a thing.

Setting your boundaries and sticking to them is fucking hard.

Well tomorrow starts July’s Camp NaNo.
I’ve set a goal of 15500 words.

A Head Full Of Ideas

Well….
It happened!
I’ve peopled so much these last couple of days.
And my head is so full of possibilities.
That I totally spaced posting yesterday!
By the time I realized I had forgotten, it was 4 minutes to midnight.
I was not getting up lol.

First post I have missed since April 1st.
It makes me a little sad too.
But shit happens.

The art studio might not actually happen until maybe next year.
There are things that need to be taken care of this year that have priority.
So for now, I will be researching things like insulation and such.
Thinking about what I want inside.
We’ve already established that a porch is a MUST! lol
I don’t care if it’s a big porch, but I need one so I can hang my wind chimes up.

I was thinking to maybe have some beams go across from wall to wall so can maybe
run twinkle lights or some of those fun strings of lights or my purple christmas lights.
Maybe weave some lengths of fabric?
Wall color? All the same? Do each a different color?  Would have to see what we have
left over from when we painted in the house.
Curtains or window dressings….I’m thinking gauzy flowy stuffs. Don’t want to block the light. Or maybe just valances?
Definitely need a screen door for breeze and ventilation.
I have a hope on maybe repurposing a stained glass window.  Have to check the restore places.
I have so many thoughts, so many ideas.

Hello Thursday

I almost feels like a Monday and not a Thursday.
Just one of those days.

Had to take the cat that adopted us to the vet today.
He’s been having problems with his eyes.  It was getting better,
then it got worse. Then he disappeared a few days. When he showed
back up it was super gross.  He had a fox tail in his eye and it must have
got way back in there.

Vet got it out. Stickers got his shots and is on 2 weeks of antibiotics. Then
he’ll go back and have it rechecked to see if it’s healed.  It’s too soon to tell
if he’ll need to have it removed or not.

He’s a stray that one of cats brought home like 3 years ago. Then he disappeared
for almost 2 years, but showed up again over Spring.  When he first came around
his fur was full of fox tails, hence the name Stickers.  For now we are keeping him
indoors and away from the rest of the fur babes so we  can be sure to give him
his meds and so he can heal.

We’re all still pretty wore out from yesterday.
They sprung a change of locale on us and added a boat into the mix which none of
us were keen on.  I told everyone else to go on if they wanted to go on the boat.  I
would be fine on shore watching.  I told them I didn’t want to spoil their fun if they
wanted to go out on the lake in the boat.   I don’t do boats or DEEP water.  I can’t swim
for one and I nearly drowned when I was 12 after a friend pulled me under water in a
pool.  I can’t float  either.

I guess I “ruined” it for some others that were already on the boat.  I apologized to the
birthday girl, but she was fine with it. Or at least she said she was. And I believe her.
But her stepdad tried to make me feel bad for not wanting to go.  I’m just glad that
others stood by me and supported me.

I had my camera, so I was prepared to entertain myself if people chose to go out on the lake in the boat.  I still had some camera time.

It was a nice area, but not really my thing.  I don’t tube or water ski or go boating.  I couldn’t even go on the “dock” because no rails.  I set my boundaries as to  what I was willing to do or not do.  And I wasn’t going to let anyone guilt me into it.  It all worked out anyway.  A good time was still had by most, if not all.

Wednesday’s Words

I peopled.
I’m tired.

It’s late.
My pillow is calling my name.

Tuesday’s Thoughts

No photos today.

I had to people today because I have to people again tomorrow.

Niece is turning 16 and we’re going to a little get together in her honor.
It’s supposed to be 90 now. And it will be at a lake/beach/state park.

It seems like just yesterday she was wanting to have animal sounds conversations with me.  She’d wear her uncle’s big headphones with a mic and talk to me about animals and then want to talk in animal speak.  Cutest little kid with a goofy grin and lopsided pigtails.  Now she’s blossoming into a young lady.  Time flies!

I didn’t know what to get her.
And I was striking out with my ideas that I had.
So, I am being “that person” who has bought her some light makeup and nail polish.
And candy!
Oh and I did pick up a dress for her last weekend. I just couldn’t find anything to go with it.

Here’s hoping tomorrow goes smoothly.

Wild And Weedy

Not too much on words right now.  Maybe I’ll come back later with a lengthier post about something.  I’m still mulling over that detached/disconnected post.

But here are some photos from the last couple of days on my treks to the mailbox.

Randomness Sunday

Don’t you just hate it when you have something you want to write about, but it’s time for bed and you think……oh yeah I’ll remember this when I sit down to blog.
And then you sit down to blog and you can’t remember shit.
Yeah, that’s me right now.
It was gonna be good too.
I just know it.
Now I can’t remember jack LOL.

Nope

Still not coming to me.
Well…..CRAP!

Today I was in charge of cooking whole artichokes.
I had no clue wtf I was doing.
I received instructions.
And I guess I did good, because we ate them 🙂

I’ve been trying to remember to take my little camera out with me on my trek to the mailbox here lately.  The milkweed are starting to bloom and so is the thistle.  The beetles haven’t arrived on the milkweed yet, but the bees are sure enjoying it. Only I am finding that my little camera is starting to annoy me a little.  I think it’s just the clarity of the viewing screen that’s bugging me.  Maybe on my next trek I need to take out the big guns. Put that Canon of mine to work.

So that’s two steps in the right directions lately.
I’m writing words.
And I’m taking photos.
Next step………..MAKE ART!
Baby steps, I suppose.
But whatever it takes to get me making and creating.

Saturday’s Thoughts

Today ought to be interesting.
My lower back is quite twitchy today and I can feel it wanting to go out.
I woke up in the middle of the night because my knee fell asleep!
Not my foot.
Not my leg.
Or even my whole leg.
Just…My KNEE!
It was the oddest feeling and I didn’t know how to make it stop.
I eventually managed to shift positions a bit and it started to ease up.
However, it too feels like it might want to go out at any moment too.

I have my initial “sketch” of my art shed sketched out.
I’m thinking of maybe a 12×16, putting it at 192 square feet.
Should  be big enough to not feel like I’m cramped but I’m sure I could
manage to out grow it  quickly if I let myself.  That size is just a thought.
I think with it this size, it should be minimal material waste.

I’m kinda looking at it this way….
If a guy with no blueprints, no building experience, no architectural
experience, etc. can build a fucking castle with no right angles…..then
I/we can build an art studio/shed!  Look up Bannerman Castle.

Going to keep the post light and short today.
Oh…
Did I mention I am actually writing?
Not just the blog here.
Like a story, with actual words.
I’m just writing it as it comes.
Which is in short snippets.
And that’s okay.
All that matters is it’s a story.
I have no idea what it is actually about.
Or anything about the characters.
It’s just really rough and sketchy, but I’m okay with that too.
I’ll just take it as it comes and see how it goes.
BUT I AM WRITING!!!!!!!

Happy Solstice

It’s the first day of Summer here.
Though you wouldn’t know it considering we have the heater on because it is so chilly. And there is actually snow that happened in the mountains!
We had some really good looking clouds form and thought we’d end up with storms.
But nothing happened here.
Today looks to be about the same, but maybe? less windy.  That would be nice.
I wonder if my dreams of a dusting of snow are of any significance?

Today is Beef Stew on the menu.
I like mine with onions cooked in it. And peas.
But I’m not cooking, so not my call.
Even when I do make it, I have to skip the peas because not everyone likes it that way.
So I usually make them separate and add them to my bowl.

What does it mean to dream of a wolf?
The night after I had dreamt of snow, I had a dream of a wolf.
It was a great She Wolf.  She had a dark grey almost black coat with a softer lighter grey undercoat.  And the most electric blue eyes.
In the dream, I looked out the window and there she was staring at me.  Not like she wanted to eat me or to attack. With almost a sense of kindness and curiosity.
I turned back to tell some there was a wolf at the window. Then when I looked out again, there was a litter of wolf pups tumbling and playing coming out of a bush. I think it was the lilac bush.  She turned her head to watch them a moment.  Maybe 5 or 6 of them. Then she turned and walked away.

She was so large, it seemed impossible for her to be real.
I wouldn’t say she was as big as a Dire Wolf, but she was definitely bigger than an average wolf. Though, after checking Google maybe she was a Dire Wolf.  I just know I felt no fear of her.  I almost want to say I dreamed of her on the night of the full moon. Wonder if there is a connection?

Thursday’s Thoughts

I have to keep checking that it’s still June.
Because the calendar says it’s June 20th, but I’m freezing my ass off!
We’re going to be about  66 today.  That’s lower than the 73 we were
supposed to have according to the forecast a couple days ago.
And it’s windy.  We could see gusts up to 30, but average could be anywhere
between 18 and 23.
I honestly don’t mind the cooler temps, but I could do without the wind.
Only because it is making too cold.

I’ve been up since too early o’clock thanks to angry ninjas.
And my hips.
I woke up somewhere around 5:30, but forced myself to stay in bed
until about 6:15 when I just couldn’t handle it anymore.
I think I am on my third? cup of coffee.

There was a plan to go to the beautiful town of McCall today.
But angry ninjas were enough to make me bow out.
I don’t like venturing when my uterus is doing it’s thing.
Then everyone else decided to postpone as well because it’s
cold and windy.  And being a mountain town, we’d probably need a coat!
So that adventure is put off to a less windy day.

One of the things I like to do in my spare time is play World Of Warcraft.
I’ve been playing for ever 12 years now.
Over the years, the game has seen some changes.
Some good, some not so much.
There are things I miss about the old way, but not everything.
Well game fans have been wanting a re-release of the the games original
format. Otherwise known amongst players as Classic or Vanilla.

Well the Classic version is being released in August. All existing subs get
the game to play for free.  If you don’t sub to the current game, you can still
play but will have to pay a monthly fee.
The next couple of days they are conducting stress tests for all active players.

So I, of course, made my original character…a Night Elf Druid.
There are a few things I forgot over the last several years.
Like how slow leveling is/was then.
And how long it took for mobs to respawn.
Or how poor AF your character is starting out.
How pressed for bag space I will be having to carry around quest items again!
In about the hour or so I played it last night, I made it to level 5. Left Aldrassil to head
to Dolanaar. And had 1 silver and 99 copper in my pocket.
I have no cat form yet. My only form of travel is to walk. I can’t even Shadowmeld yet!
But still…….it’s all fun.
It’s also nice to  see the world as it was before the Cataclysm happened and
destroyed many of my favorite places.
Classic/Vanilla will be a fun change of pace.

We finally got our tomatoes planted.
We are trying something knew.
We are using an old kiddie pool that had a few holes in it.
So kind of like a raised bed.
Last year we tried hay bales. That worked out okay for the most part.
But I think I prefer my tomatoes planted in soil.
We’ll see how this experiment goes.
If it works well, we’ll probably have two pools next year.
Let the experiment commence!

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