This is so much deeper than I ever imagined.
I always thought that astrology was the sign you were born in.
Like I was born a Scorpio. So that was it. Period.
Then about eight years or so ago, I got a card reading.
This lady was so spot on. It was the first one I got that was accurate.
She was legit. Didn’t ask me for more money. Didn’t even ask me
questions. Just read the cards. Okay the only thing she did ask me
was my birthday, maybe the time too. And that was the first ever I
heard of a Moon sign. Mine happens to be Gemini.
Some where along the way, I discovered my Rising/Ascendant sign
was Capricorn. I hated that because my mother’s birth sign was that.
I wanted nothing to do with it. But, it is what it is and when I read
horoscopes for it sometimes, it’s pretty spot on.
I’ve heard of birth numbers and mine is a 9. Then there is the year
your in number. I’m either in a 4 or a 5 year depending on which
birthday I use. Last year’s or the one coming. Either way, it seems
to be more or less accurate.
But now I’ve learned about something called a Stellium? Mine
happens to be Libra and it totally explains why I second guess
myself and my decisions and choices. It explains why I always feel
like I’m essentially waiting for the other shoe to drop. Though, I was
informed that this type also relates to learning, philosophy, relationships,
communication. I love learning, I love deep conversations, I suck at
communicating because I never feel heard.
My Gemini Moon explains why I feel this deep need to find security and
safety. Why I often feel restless and unsettled. Why I feel like I am
being pulled in too many directions. Why I need to feel free to be creative!
My Scorpio Sun explains why I absolutely need to get to the bottom of
things, the why I need answers feeling. I explains my deep passion for
authenticity and truth. Why I feel like I need to distinguish myself again
with philosophy and education, but also with faith and travel.
My Ascendant Capricorn explains why I’m viewed as conservative or
serious. I’ve been called a prude on more than one occasion.
But there is so much more, isn’t there?
Like, I have several houses (?) that are empty. No signs or planets in them.
Though, someone said a house is never really empty. Like my 11th house
on my chart is blank. Nobody home. But it’s ruled by Sagittarius. This is
actually confusing me a bit. And the Google isn’t being very helpful.
The same with the stuff about the Stellium. Google isn’t helpful there either.
But I’ll keep trying different ways of asking what I’m looking for.
I am going to try and dive into some YouTube videos this weekend, maybe
they can shed some light.
Another inquiry came up in the group I’m in. About are you an
Indigo, Starseed, Lightworker, Rainbow, Fae, or Crystal? Outside of the
Fae, most of the others seem to be similar in traits or at least what I have
seen online. Someone in the group said you can only be one of them.
But what if your traits line up with more than one? I seem to have the
most traits with being an Indigo. But it is yet another thing I know very
little about. It’s interesting though.
I don’t know why I’m suddenly so curious and interested. I’ve always,
I suppose, been fascinated by astrology and numerology. It just seems that
learning it now would be so daunting and most definitely overwhelming.
I don’t think I want to do charts for people or anything like that. I think
it’s more that I want to get more insight into myself.
On a side note, I took one of those online quizzes and it told me I was
something called a Pleiadian starseed. Just another thing to dive into
when I want to fall down a rabbit hole.